I haven’t found someone for me since terminating the benefits part of my friendship with the storm, but it’s only a matter of time. I have been talking to someone since few years, but I’m not sure what I want. I won’t say, I’m feeling anything more than a friendship for her but sometimes it’s more than that. I’ve been hanging out with other friends but she has always been running in my mind. I think I could go somewhere with that. We’ll see how things work.
Anyway, the point is, I think my life is awesome. Some people may look down on narcissism as a bad thing, but I don’t agree, sometimes it’s good for your own. If you spend all day thinking about how pretty you are, or constantly do nothing but brag to your friends, it’s bad I guess. But every once in a while, or maybe even once a day, it’s good to say I am awesome. There is no one I love more than myself. If I could choose between my life and anyone else’s life, I would choose my own for sure. …
If you ask me who my Idol is, who I looked up to, my role model was, I would have a definite answer, ME, yes, it’s me… I am so awesome! Devilishly handsome, smart enough to handle things and love to admire me. I don’t need porn to masturbate; all I need is a mirror. If I had a choice, I would be around myself all the time, 24 hours a day, and 7 days a week. And I get to be with myself all the time because of guess what? I am – ME. You love me or not but I love myself yes, I love myself a lot.
So what brought on this intense bout of narcissism? This morning I got a package in the mail. I got an offer from an event agency in this coming month! They are paying me a handsome amount for that event show, paying for all my food, hotel and all and most importantly giving me an opportunity to work, learn and grow with them.
I love such creative things, I love to be creative, and it is an art. I was introduced to new faces when I (for some reason I can no longer remember) picked up some of them. Every interaction with them since then has increased my passion for that event. So, to me, that event is even better than a regular job at Facebook or Microsoft or Google whatever, I don’t care. This is what I want to do with my life.
I am also spending a fair amount of time on writing new articles for some magazine, creativity doing whatever it demands I feel like doing. In the past month or so I wrote so many things, which are not disclosed yet because I haven’t polished them and something is incomplete. I think today I’ll write some more writing and that’s how I’ll practice. I love the feeling when I creatively write and people read. It really feels like magic when you see traffic on your website.
Like I’ve been told all these stories of this wonderful land and now, I’m finally there and I can walk, run dance through the magic meadows of my writing.
I am also appreciating the face that looks back at me when I look in the mirror. Before it was nice, I didn’t hate my face but I definitely felt like it wasn’t quite there like it hadn’t yet reached maturity. Today, I looked and see a face that I can get behind. A face that is really innocent, suave and confident.
I am done now – I will surely write something new soon, keep your eyes on!